you ever get the feeling sometimes that people seem to hate bush because its cool? sort of a lemming impulse because everyone else is doing it. (which is why i think people liked him in the first place. 9,11 set that in motion.) im not saying that he isnt a a herpese sore on a child raping chatholic priest, but ive felt the lemming vibe. i feel it in the force.

on the other side, ive heard some stuff about obamas economic stimulas pack, and ive yet to hear anything about public works projects which bothers me a little bit. in fact all ive heard is just shit about tax cuts. yes what hes doing with the tax cuts are good, their great, their a massage in the form of a check. but it sounds more like the plan of a benevolent republican. *shudders* tax cuts are good, but i think public works projects are better. especially now. and you can put people to work fixing some of the things that really need fixing in this country. because a tax cut is no good if your not getting a paycheck.

also, i still want to be sociable, a lot right now.

merry fucken christmas

old saint nick's got burben breath, its so cold you could catch your death,
a cop sold me some crystel meth, its a merry fucken christmas.
everythings so cristmasy, the streets are twinkling with frozen pee,
my priest just sat on santa's knee, its a merry fucken christmas.

all the kids go to bed each night to dream what santa brings em,
unless your jewish or muslem or some other gyp religion.

crappy toys flyen off the shelves, midgets dressed up to look like elves,
spread good cheer or burn in hell, its a merry fucken christmas.

all the kids go to bed each night to dream what santa brings em,
unless your jewish or muslem or some other gyp religion.

cracklin fire to keep me warm, and my collection of asian porn,
cradle my bells and work my horn,
its a keep on trucken, last years sucken, slap the pucken, how much wood could a woodchuck chucken,
merry fucken christmas.

Dennis Leary rocks.

BTW if people want to hang out with me over christmas break id love to be sociable.

YAY I HAVE THE PLAUGE!!

and during finals week too!

/fail


nobody reading this should feel guilty. if its going around i pretty much cant avoid it.

in other news. its strange how i seem to not notice long tracks of time where im not dreaming. it may seem inconsequential to other people, but sometimes dreams are the only thing that help me realise things. i lose touch sometimes and i can only be woken up by a kick from the eather. i should dream more often.

"Defeated, I concede and
Move closer
I may find comfort here
I may find peace within the emptiness
How pitiful

It's calling me...

And in my darkest moment, fetal and weeping
The moon tells me a secret - my confidant

Don't wanna be down here feeding my narcissism.
I must crucify the ego before it's far too late
I pray the light lifts me out
Before I pine away."

   -reflection

i knew it would happen soon, and here it is. the bush administration is working frantically to enact a bunch of last minute resolutions to solidify its agenas into the american system. their making that last malignant push to try and force their mutated, dieased, antichrist policies out of Americas already poisoned and abused womb, trying to keep america from abourting the country destroying practices the bush regime raped it with, in their enduring hatred for hope and prosperity... fuckers.

granted my boy from illinois is already there fighting it, like the mr T, rocky balboa lovechild of politics he is, (exept smarter) but it still pisses me off.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/27972415

heres a tidbit:

"The Labor Department proposal is one of about 20 highly contentious rules the Bush administration is planning to issue in its final weeks. The rules deal with issues as diverse as abortion, auto safety and the environment. One rule would make it easier to build power plants near national parks and wilderness areas. Another would reduce the role of federal wildlife scientists in deciding whether dams, highways and other projects pose a threat to endangered species."

and of course on a much lessor note, i saw that oboma is going to name hillery as his secretary of state.

now am i mistaken, or did david allen greir specifically ask you not to "lose yo damn mind"?

this crazy lady nearly destroyed the damn democratic party just to get nominated to the presidency, and you may not have heard but liberman is back in the democratic party too. ya know after trying to crush you (and all democrates in the last election) by swiching sides and being a rabid mcain supporter. i know your all commited to the idea of a lincoln cabnit, but come on! having seniter droopy fredo judas back in the party is enough, dont add senater lizzy borden to your staff too. now is the time for strength and solidarity, ya know all those things democrates are too big of pussies to do normally, and thats why they get mowed-thefuck-over, every four or eight years by the repoblicans propganda tanks. just think about it. im not sayen you should pull out a bag of dirty tricks, but dont go walken through the forum without a knife proof vest. RECONIZE!!

after the crappy, tiring, day i had today, when at times it felt like i had glass shoved into my heart, and acid covered glass into my eyes and forhead. i only have two things to declare..

1: I have a stay of execution for one year. yep one more needlewalking, frazzeled, strungout, insomniac year, before i might die. but thats longer for me to try to get a damn safety net, so thats good.

2: god wants women to masturbate, often!

i feel a little better now.


"is this what you had in mind? i hope you choke!"

he did it. we did it.
after 8 years of a neocon theocracy,
after nearly a decade of constant fear-mongering,
after all the bullshit, we finally did it.

our boy from ILL., the great black hope, won.

i know that not everything is going to change, i know that many things are still going to be just as bad as theyve ever been, some things are going to even get worse... but im hoping this victory will make things a little less hard for people like me.




on a more personel note, while i am very glad about the election, i am not in a good place.
i would say its angst, but im not frustrated enough for it to be angst. im way too apathetic/numb. but with whats going on in my life now, i have nothing left. if the three of you that read my journal are curious about whats up, ill hold my head against the phone recever and let you hear the ocean, for those who just want the fyi, im feeling bad physically and mentally, and aside from the odd distraction, its not going to get better any time soon, but im trying to go on as well as i can.

http://voices.washingtonpost.com/the-trail/2008/10/16/joe_the_plumber_not_a_licensed.html?hpid=topnews


stupid basterds.